Abyss of mind

Well well well; here am I again commencing to write something which I have no clue on how it will go and how it will end….. may be the reason is at the current time and place I do NOT know myself where my mind is heading to..? it gets quite tricky and interesting when you start questing your mind on what is it wants and keep looking inside it for the advise, At times it brings in front of your eyes what ever is written on the wall which is quite expected but at times it brings you face – to - face with something you never expected….. sometimes it is pleasant but most of the times it does not feel good as we are not prepared to churn / accept is…..this reminds me on of interesting quote by someone unknown

"Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't."

Many before me have tried and many after me will keep on trying to understand the mind. It is nearly impossible to say if anyone has been able to accomplish this successfully – some may proclaim success in the area but I do not think it is really possible; primarily because – it is not only about finding out what you are thinking yourself but it is equally about understand what others think and perceive from the situation at hand. Let me take these two thoughts and slice and dice them further

“Understanding Our self”

It is a tricky thing, most of us think that we know our self and we have a very clear vision on what we want from life today, tomorrow and so on…. But trust me this is not as simple as it looks, most of the times we have think we want something but as soon as we get it, we get overwhelmed by the price tag which comes with it, I always remember something told by one of my previous boss – “Think twice on what you are asking for, because you may end up getting it…..”  We are very complex yet simple creatures; we sometimes act very wisely beyond our years of maturity and sometimes behave in the most rudimentary ways even worse than as an infant. What I have learned over time (last few years especially) is when you are not sure of yourself what you or your mind wants then the best possible way to deal with it is – bide time…..if biding time is not available then make time….. there is no other way….and in this time – converse with your self – your rational self, your dreamier self, your creative self, your egoistic self, your nurturing self – there are many aspects of personality and before arriving to any conclusion, wear hats of all these and then decide – after all you may have many caring friends but you are also a best and most honest friend of yourself as well….

 “Understanding Others”

Now this one is a monster when compared to the previous one. If the previous aspect is considered a mole than this one is a skyscraper when compared to it. Before taking a jab at it; first trying to understand – why this is necessary at all? Well the answer is quite simple for me – We all are always looking for love, affection, respect and admiration from the people around us, so it matters to us as human on what other think of us…. and it is a double edged sword at times as well…. At times it makes us do things which we do not want to do making it a weak trait in a personality unlike the previous one which is a positive trait in any person. Another interesting aspect to consider is - we (human) react uniquely / differently from other when put in the same situation (when the rules and parameters of the game called life are constant) – for me the million dollar question will be why and how – is the brain of all of us wired differently? Probably Yes!!!  We humans are not supposed to solve equations of life like a calculator because there is no emotions in it, We may derive our physical strength from food and air but we need emotions to derive our mental strength and they act as our lamp of light is a pitch black night if used the right way. Un - huh….(didn’t like the way I explained the emotions in the line before, let me take another stab at it). For me Emotions are the wild animals when the soul is roaming in a jungle, they may take you in the direction of food and water but then can harm you adversely as well…It is very important to find that thin fine line between totally driven by them or being devoid of them, none of the extremes are good and the balance is sooooooo fine and delicate to maintain….Anyway coming to the original point – I have tried many many times in understanding and predicting other and have failed miserably most of the times (the latest being yesterday… ha ha ha…), looking for some banter in it – looks like the one sitting above the sky needs to teach me a few more lessons of life before putting a stamp of “QC O.K” on me… J

Parting Note

I sometimes feel that we keep on wishing for more and more and end up cooking for some reason for being unhappy when we should be happy in the first place because we tend to miss the things we do not have instead of cherish what we have…..the challenging part is getting it implementing it  – making mind work this way instead of thousands of other ways possible…..

P.S. – Just read what crap I just wrote - this is some psychotic trolling on words up there. I can pity on you for now as you have wasted some good time without getting any kind of kicks out of it and if you liked it then – welcome to the same boat, probably you and me are suffering some the same disease…

Chao

~lokesh (XXXI)