Soocha naa tha...

Chalo aaj kuch roomani likthe hai....

Bahaaro maine kabhi aaisa samaa bhi hoga, soocha naa thaa

Hawaoo maine kabhi aaise khusboo bhi hoogi, soocha naa tha

Chandni maine - sapne hoo bhi sakte hai itne rooshan, soocha naa tha

Kissi kee aakho maine dunia dikh see jaati hai, soocha naa thaa

Kissi ke muskaan see khushi bhaagi - bhaagi see chaali aati hai, soocha naa tha

Kisse kee saaso maine hoo sakti hai itne kushboo, soocha naa tha

Woo kehte hai humse, kee hum kya soochte hai

Aab koi batlaye yaa hum batlaye, Kee aise hoogi humari sooch, humne kabhi soocha naa tha…

~lokesh v. (XLVIII)
 

The Butterfly Effect on Relationships

So here am I again, sitting on my reading chair with laptop in my lap, listening to the oldies from 50’s - after wrapping an Interesting read from an old timer and thinking to start a new one or let the mind ponder on the thoughts of the read I just completed…..All the books I have read in last few months have blessed me with a new perspective of thinking and understanding the human emotions, mind and reactions in a new different way.. The last one I read dealt closely with the under currents of the human relations and sexuality. 

Now coming to the thought process with which I started this note; what I learned from this book was

Human mind and soul are like sea, when you are about to get close to them all you see is lots and lots of waves of emotions and reactions, and whence you cross the initial boundary and move towards the uncharted waters, you may not see all the violent currents which attracted / despised you in the first place but it does in NO WAY means that the inside is hollow and there is nothing left to be known; in fact it is usually the opposite – the inside is far deep than you can imagine– the top layer of sea is just cover for the depth of the underlying currents and it contains a vast and complex ecosystem of multiple traits inside. Sometimes a very small change in tis ecosystem causes a butterfly effect sort of impact causing a big storm on the shore.

We most of the times tend to look at the change from outside and attempt to address the problem from the same place instead of understanding the root cause and addressing it; this may help in putting a wrapper on the issue like putting over ripen food in the back of the fridge, but is actually does not fixes the problem and ends up stinking the whole damn place with its smell. This process is the commonly referred as “mutual understanding”;

Sounds weird? isn’t it…? – I mean what a term like “mutual understanding” had got to do with the warning signals of a stinking relationship which is in a downward spiral? Well it is quite simple actually, if you think a bit deeper on trying on understand this so called “mutual understanding”; you will end up observing that what most of us call “Mutual Understanding” is nothing but a blanket covering the state of status – quo of a tug of war between the expectations and commitments between two personalities.

Now the important aspects is how many times we catch these warning signals and make a sincere effort to fix them instead of getting indulged in to the blame games and trying to prove our self a victim of situation – I would say very rare of the times…. So from what I have learned from life, reads, experiences (mine and others), for any kind of relationship / feelings to work over a period of time we need to be on a constant look out for these warning signals, trying to a understand the core of the issues and then discussing these core issues, instead of letting the staleness kill the beautiful aroma of love…..

~lokesh v (XXXVIII)

Winning Heart

My thought of the evening:- 

"

When it comes over winning someone’s body and mind, it is easy; but winning someone’s heart is all together a different monster…

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why…….?

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Because to win someone’s heart you first need to become a slave to it…..

"

~lokesh v (XXXVII)

Awaara Dil

Zindagi ki aaanjaan rahoo maine

Nahin milte maan chaahe saaye sabhi

Zindagi dekhaati hai sapne naaye

Kyoki adhoori reh jaati hai poorani umeedee kabhi

Dil mangta hai afsaane naaye

Kyoki poori hooti nahin kahaniya sabhi

Dil ban jaata hai ek awara banjara

Kyoki khaali hai kaa koona kaahi

Chalta rehega yeh awaargee ka aalam

Jab tak milta nahin isse koi dilbar kaahi

 ~lokesh v (XXXVI)

Philosophy of a Man's Life

To live happily a man does not need to love someone, instead he needs to know that he is loved by someone special; A man can not enter a woman's life and at the most he can hope for - is to make a life for a woman which she always wanted..

 ~lokesh v. (XXXIV)

P. S. - Words are mine but thought is derived from D. H. Lawrence’s Lady Chatterley’s Lover

Kaash

Kyo zindagi ki raahee hooti hai teedi-meedi see

Kaash hooti yeh bhi seedhi lakiroo kee tarah

Kyo dil dhadakta hai unki saaso ki sargam see
Kaash rehta yeh bhi aanjaan jaazbaato kee ehsaas see

Kyo nazar aata hai unka chehra sapno kee gehrahiyo main

Kaash yeh bhi hoote ek  meethi yaad ki tarah

Joo yaad jab bhi aate, toh dil koo dee jaate ki sukoon bhara pal

es bechaani ki jagah

~lokesh v(XXXIII)

Chandni ka sandesh....

“

iss raat kee chupi chupi chandnee kyo khel raahi hai aakh michooli mujh see

 khelte - khelte jaise kuch raahe hai haawoo see jhooko maine gun-gunatee hue see

 samjhaa saa raahi hai mujhkoo, kehte hue

            seekhna hai - toh seekhoo mujhse - zindagi jeene kaa andaaz

zee zindagi aase, jaise haar rooj aati hoo maine 

            teere dhoomil tapish bhare maan koo pal do pal kee liye roshan karne

loota jaati hee har rooj pyar bhara ehsaas tujh par, 

chaahe tu pehchane yaa naa pehchanee iss ehsaas koo

teeri pal do pal kee muskurahat bahut hai meere liye,

aur teeri kushi hee hai pai-maana meeri zindagi kaa

kuch nahin chaheyi mujhko tujse,

baas jee lee apni zindagi aisee - jaise jeena chaahta hai tu

 aapne sapno kee jhoole maine....

“

~lokesh v. (XXVII)

Nazar

“

Woo poochtee hai humse

            kee kyo dekhte hai hum sapne in khuli aakhoo see

Aab kaise samjha-aye hum unko

            kee in naazroo ko ijazaat nahin hai palke jukha leene kee

kaash dikh jaaye aapna mazhar unki naazroo ke gehrayi maine

”

~lokesh v. (XXV)

Vocab

mazhar=self

Shayaar

“

Hum naa thee koi shayar, par unki nazaroo nee dewaana baana diya,
nahin kasur hai unka - woo to rehte hai apni hee moojo maine,
par kya kaare iss dil-e-majboor kaa, joo khoo baitha hai aapna wajood unki julfoo kee saaye maine

”

 ~lokesh v. (XXIV)

Memories (some half baked thoughts)

Memories….. off the God’s gifts which differentiates us from other life forms, it is a gift which makes us a “human”. Mind captures unlimited of these over a period of time, we declare some as good, some as bad, some as sad, some as embarrassing, some as painful, etc etc…..Well I was reading a book few hours back and where the protagonist is writing about his memories from the past and it got me thinking – there is actually another way of classifying these:-

     -  First type is the one which we recall / recreate / remember with our open eyes – like in a laboratory, like performing some science experiment, trying to recall the exact steps, exact scenario in a way to relive the moment.

         -  The second type is the one which we recall with our eyes closed. These do not require anything at all, recalling these do not even require any effort from mind at all. They are always there and closing of eyes is all needed to bring them back. These are never precise and are always like a blur, these bring the emotions in us.

Among the about two types – we often misjudge - which are more important, according to me it is always the second type which play a more crucial role in anything we do, anyway we react. The first ones may help in achieving the success and the materialist things but the second ones help us in evolving our self from emotional and physiological standpoint. It does not matter after a certain point of time if you remember the answers to materialist questions but what makes the life beautiful is recalling the moments which you had with your family and friends - your first crush, your first bunk from classes, first night out with friends, your first kiss, the time when you held your kid for the first time, etc etc…These are the moment which add beauty to life.

Yes there will be some very painful ones which may scar you for rest of your life like losing a loved one before time, but the important part is asking yourself what would you prefer – have the loved ones for time being in your life or not having them at all. Face these unwanted and painful events like an eruption of a volcano – when it erupts in the vicinity of life, it kills all of it but at the same time it also creates new fertile grounds so that something new can grow and replace the old. There is nothing to feel bad in loving someone who is not with you now, but if you see from the perspective of the lost one – did he or she wanted you to live the life the way you are? If not then it is time to clean at least a cornet if not the complete room of the heart which is not occupied from a long long time and to see if some one can fill that space…..

Bottom line – Do not run from the memories, but do not remain hung over these as well, cherish the good times from the past and look forward to create some new ones in the future….

~lokesh v (XXI)

Dil-e-Majboor

Its Friday dear, chalo aaj kuch roomani likhte hai…..

Dil-e-Majboor

“

Bekudhi kaa aalam yeh bhi hooga soocha naa tha,

Khamooshi kaa aalam yeh bhi hooga soocha naa tha

Woo rehte hai mashgool aapni hee shokhiyon maine,

Aab kaise kaare ikraar–e–mohabbat unse aur kaise baatayee

Hamaari aakhooo ki roshaniye hai unki nazaar see,

Hamaari dil ki dhadkan hai unki saaso see

Unki ek muskurahat see mausam roomani hoota hai,

unki nazaaro maine aaya shabnam chubha jaata hai dil maine ek teehkhi faak

Hum naa saahi unke ghulam iss duniya maine,

par kya kaare is dil-e-majboor kaa

Jisne kabool kar liya hai ghulami ka manzar,

is duniya kee rehmat koo chood kar

         

”

~lokesh v. (XVIII)

~lokesh v. (XVI)

Vocab (in context of above)

Bekhudi=unconsciousness / unawareness of situation or emotions

Khamooshi = silence

Aalam=One who has the rule

Soocha=thought

Mashgool=occupied

Shokhiyon=mischiefs

ikraar–e–mohabbat=confession of love

Roshaniye=light in the eyes

Dhadkan=heartbeat

Saaso=breath

Muskurahat=smile

Mausam=weather

Romani=romantic

shabnam = tears

chubha=pinch

teekhi=sharp

faak=thorn

ghulam=slave

dil-e-majboor=love sick heart

kabool=agreed / chosen

manzar=view / sight / scene

rehmat=compassion

Tasavur

Aarj kiya hai....

"

Kaise kaare andaz e bayan us tasavur kaa

          dikhta hai jisme mujhe chehra meere yaar kaa

aur lee jaati hai woo mujhe khaabgaah kee un gaaliyaaro main

          jaaha tham jaata waqt, aur khoo jaate hai gam meere, 
meere yaar kee fiza maine

 "

Vocab:-

andaz e bayan= explain

tasavur = imaginary picture

khaabgaah=dreamworld

gaaliyaaro = passages / streets

waqt=time

fiza=air full of love and romance

~lokesh v. (X)