Well
well well; here am I again commencing to write something which I have no clue
on how it will go and how it will end….. may be the reason is at the current
time and place I do NOT know myself where my mind is heading to..? it gets
quite tricky and interesting when you start questing your mind on what is it
wants and keep looking inside it for the advise, At times it brings in front of
your eyes what ever is written on the wall which is quite expected but at times
it brings you face – to - face with something you never expected….. sometimes
it is pleasant but most of the times it does not feel good as we are not
prepared to churn / accept is…..this reminds me on of interesting quote by
someone unknown
"Advice is what we
ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't."
Many
before me have tried and many after me will keep on trying to understand the
mind. It is nearly impossible to say if anyone has been able to accomplish this
successfully – some may proclaim success in the area but I do not think it is
really possible; primarily because – it is not only about finding out what you
are thinking yourself but it is equally about understand what others think and
perceive from the situation at hand. Let me take these two thoughts and slice
and dice them further
“Understanding Our self”
It
is a tricky thing, most of us think that we know our self and we have a very
clear vision on what we want from life today, tomorrow and so on…. But trust me
this is not as simple as it looks, most of the times we have think we want
something but as soon as we get it, we get overwhelmed by the price tag which comes
with it, I always remember something told by one of my previous boss – “Think twice on what you are asking for, because you
may end up getting it…..” We are very complex yet simple creatures; we
sometimes act very wisely beyond our years of maturity and sometimes behave in
the most rudimentary ways even worse than as an infant. What I have learned
over time (last few years especially) is when you are not sure of yourself what
you or your mind wants then the best possible way to deal with it is – bide time…..if
biding time is not available then make time….. there is no other way….and in
this time – converse with your self – your rational self, your dreamier self,
your creative self, your egoistic self, your nurturing self – there are many aspects
of personality and before arriving to any conclusion, wear hats of all these
and then decide – after all you may have many caring friends but you are also a
best and most honest friend of yourself as well….
“Understanding
Others”
Now
this one is a monster when compared to the previous one. If the previous aspect
is considered a mole than this one is a skyscraper when compared to it. Before taking
a jab at it; first trying to understand – why this is necessary at all? Well the
answer is quite simple for me – We all are always looking for love, affection,
respect and admiration from the people around us, so it matters to us as human
on what other think of us…. and it is a double edged sword at times as well…. At
times it makes us do things which we do not want to do making it a weak trait
in a personality unlike the previous one which is a positive trait in any
person. Another interesting aspect to consider is - we (human) react uniquely /
differently from other when put in the same situation (when the rules and
parameters of the game called life are constant) – for me the million dollar
question will be why and how – is the brain of all of us wired differently? Probably
Yes!!! We humans are not supposed to
solve equations of life like a calculator because there is no emotions in it,
We may derive our physical strength from food and air but we need emotions to
derive our mental strength and they act as our lamp of light is a pitch black
night if used the right way. Un - huh….(didn’t like the way I explained the
emotions in the line before, let me take another stab at it). For me Emotions
are the wild animals when the soul is roaming in a jungle, they may take you in
the direction of food and water but then can harm you adversely as well…It is
very important to find that thin fine line between totally driven by them or
being devoid of them, none of the extremes are good and the balance is sooooooo
fine and delicate to maintain….Anyway coming to the original point – I have
tried many many times in understanding and predicting other and have failed miserably
most of the times (the latest being yesterday… ha ha ha…), looking for some
banter in it – looks like the one sitting above the sky needs to teach me a few
more lessons of life before putting a stamp of “QC O.K” on me… J
Parting Note
I
sometimes feel that we keep on wishing for more and more and end up cooking for
some reason for being unhappy when we should be happy in the first place
because we tend to miss the things we do not have instead of cherish what we
have…..the challenging part is getting it implementing it – making mind
work this way instead of thousands of other ways possible…..
P.S.
– Just read what crap I just wrote - this is some psychotic trolling on words
up there. I can pity on you for now as you have wasted some good time without
getting any kind of kicks out of it and if you liked it then – welcome to the
same boat, probably you and me are suffering some the same disease…
Chao
~lokesh
(XXXI)
